Today I got a semicolon tattoo. My wonderful friend Natalia Forero came to support me. You may already have some idea as to why people get these tattoos, but for me it is a reminder. It is a reminder that I have value and purpose in this world. It is also a reminder to others that they are not alone in their depression and anxiety. Suffering is different for everybody, so I don't assume to understand everyone's pain.
For quite some time, I have suffered with depression and anxiety kind of wondering when it would end and when I would figure everything out, but it turns out that for me, depression isn't something to figure out. It is something that is part of my life.
There are some days when there is no hope, no joy, and everything feels like a stab in the heart. Sometimes I can't make good decisions for myself and I can't stay above the noise of the thoughts in my head.
The loneliness is too much, but the company is suffocating.
Sometimes, it takes all my effort to outwardly show happiness when I feel nothing at all. Sometimes I feel everything and cry until I feel nothing and then I still feel everything.
This is not forever. Things are constantly changing.
I am strong, I am brave. I am valuable.
Thanks for reading!
Purple Days ahead!
~Analise Nelson
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